In the shadows

As I stood in the shadows a deep sorrow in my heart

After only a short time you were now to depart

The sadness was there for I knew I would see you no more.

You have opened up in me an unwanted door.

This was a door that I had long ago sealed

The hurt that comes through that door will not be healed.

Through this door comes love which causes me only pain.

I had determined to never allow this into my heart again.

But with your kindness and sweetness I fell

Now my life will only be hell.

Hell because of the empty place 

That missing you cannot erase. 

None of this was your fault; you are not to blame.

I am the one who opened up myself to this shame.

I am the one who spoke the word

That will now pierce my heart with a sword.

But out of that shadow came forth one lasting joy

That will live in me and nothing can destroy.

So I thank you for this special gift of splendor 

That will be something I will always remember.

You have given to me the joy that I shall cherish

Even though all else perish.

I will cast aside the pain and only the joy will remain.

But with this joy comes unspeakable sadness and emptiness

Because I know it will never be mine again.

By: Jo Smith ~~~ May 29, 2025